life. i dont know about you. but i feel like taking a knife & stab myself right now. my life's fucking stressfull. i cant find the reason why i sholud live. nobody loves me. nobody want me. nobody listen to me. people look at me as if i'm invinsible. i hate my fuckig life. i hate my fucking school. i hate those fucking classmates thats on my mind now. i cant believe they had fun painting the class & they didnt inform me. excuses? I DIDNT KNOW YOU WANTED TO JOIN. pfft. fuck you. gaaaaaaaaaaaaah !!! sorry. there's too much things in my mind now. i cant stand it. as you all know i dont have siblings. only one, which he cant even talk yet -_- i dont have anybody to share my problems. i treat my bestfriends like my own siblings. i depend on them. but, ahhhh idk. i cant think anymore. seriously. friends are not making me better, not a bit. even hykal. i dont know whats up with him. he's weird now. gosh. & zul, well he's not the zul i used to know. hes a total stranger.


i see those happy family, happy couple, those bestfriends. i admit, i'm jealous. jealousy strike me almost everytime. i think i can never have that happiness. fucccccckkkkkkkk. gaaaaah! stress sress stress! maybe only god know how i feel. i know my attitude like, so not needed. & i'm fugly. eh as if you can choose the way you look. god made us this way so we just have to shut the fuck up & accept the fact. dont judge the book by its cover. he/she may be fucking ugly but the person inside can be as pretty as an angel. but noo, you people go to the pretty people instead.


ahh whatever you people think of me. if you got any comments. do tell me through msn or whatever. but keep it to yourselves. i know you got alot of comments. RIGHT GUYS? but i'll try to ognore all these fucking obstacles & go on with my so caled happy life.


i hope the 3-4 ,malay students dont take it to the heart ah ehh. kalaw naq take it to the heart pon, uke hati la kaayyy. kalaw naq tegor aku. tegor. tapy, taqmo masok masok kan org eh. naq tegor tegor sendiri xD tu pon kalaw korang taq faham ah kite manusia mesti ade mood swings kan.